Ghost Of Sorrow

Lyrics

First I listened
Then I lost
Then I let sorrow tell me
That losing was all I had left
Five years, I look back today
Five years of giving myself away
One bad decision led to another
Each buried beneath the weight of the other
Their poison took its time in me
I lost the things I fought to be
And when their voices disappeared
Sorrow stayed and fed my fear
I thought that I was counting losses
I never counted what it cost
To spend each day regretting yesterday
And lose another while I watch
Sorrow is the ghost that holds you back
You can't move forward when you're strapped to the back
You remember your mistakes and every step that you take
When you're put in a corner and you're trapped within a border
Ghost of sorrow
Tomorrow, I see you now
You kept me looking back
While life ran out
I let that monster make its home
Until its voice became my own
Don't try again, you know you'll fail
I called it truth and built its jail
I chose whatever hurt the least
And gave up more to keep the peace
I waited till I felt alright, then watched five years go out of sight
Their advice began the damage
My sorrow carried on the work
I thought that I was nursing wounds
I let them rule my home
Sorrow is the ghost that holds you back
You can't move forward when you're strapped to the past
You remember your mistakes and every step that you take
When you're put in a corner and you're trapped within a border
Ghost of sorrow, I see you now
You kept me looking back
While life ran out
Today I saw the pattern clear
I made my choices out of fear
I wasn't choosing what I wanted
I was avoiding what had haunted me
I cannot get those five years back
I can't stop giving you the next
I don't have to feel alright
To make one choice that serves my life
Enough of feeling sorry
Enough of standing still
You fed upon my sadness
You will not feed upon my will
I know what went wrong
I know what must change
I will make tomorrow pay for yesterday
Ghost of sorrow, give me back my life
I won't give you another day or night
I know my mistakes, I know what they take
I'm leaving that corner, I'm breaking that border
Ghost of sorrow, you're holding strong
I have decisions left to make
And none belong to you
They gave the advice
I paid the price
Sorrow took five years
It doesn't get the rest of my life